Finding my way back

After the extreme depression and alienation of recent weeks (and gloomy tweets), it is a relief to write a blog post which isn't soaked in doom and gloom.  Yes, I'm hoping that I have finally turned the corner.  I woke up on Friday morning and for the first time in weeks, the massive cloud had lifted, the fog started to fade and it was as if I had finally got myself back again.  Other little things have happened too, which will probably help me to move onwards and upwards in the coming weeks and months. 

Oh, and we have finally booked our holiday to Croatia in September!  These days of course, we can't really plan too far ahead, but fingers crossed that all is well at that time, and I finally get to fulfil one of my outstanding holiday ambitions at long last.

One thing which never changes is my continuing quest to lose weight, and have started yet again.  I've lost 3lbs in two weeks, a slow but steady start.  The unexpectedly warm weather of the past few weeks - no, I never thought I'd ever see myself writing that sentence either! - has been very nice, but it's been too warm to throw myself back into an ongoing exercise programme.  I have been back on the exercise bike though: it's a great way to exercise, although I'll need to get back to doing my aerobics if I want to get the desired results in the coming weeks. 

Wanted: daylight

So anyway, the depression has been eating away at me again, I've been in a bit of denial and haven't really acknowledged it until the past week.  I shouldn't feel this low during the summer months, but the fact remains that it is happening, and it all came to a head over the last couple of weeks.  I have my own theory on what's really behind it.  So I had put it out there, that I'm suffering from a summer variant of SAD, and I know the reason for it.  All things being well, this may be resolved by the end of this month.  Or not.  Here's hoping anyway...

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately (that's what the noise is) and after the stresses of recent months, I'm trying to find a way back to the old happy me, rather than the current unrecognisable unhappy variation.  They say that the more things change, the more they stay the same.  7 years ago, when I started blogging, I was in a bit of a dark place.  I know that it is a bit of a cliché, but blogging really rescued me and changed my life. 

Over the past couple of years I've had other priorities, other things eating into my time, and just not enough hours in the day, which has completely irritated me, and the blogs have suffered as a result.  I want to get back to that good place.  I want to start blogging again, to recapture the buzz which I once felt.  Times have changed: mainstream music is mainly crap, and I can't really connect with it any more.  But there are so many things which I still want to write about, and it's about time I got back there.